Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to Eternity
^{Hosanna by Hillsong}

These lyrics became so clear today. I honestly feel like it was a turning point in my walk with Christ.

Question: What is the alternative to following Jesus Christ?
Answer: Matthew 7:21-23

That scares me. I guess I’ll let you know what happened today though so you may understand what I’m saying or why I’m saying it.

While out on relationship evangelism today with some students on Thrive Trip, we were visiting Kenny (a.k.a. “ICE”) and things were going great. We’ve been sharing with him the love of Christ and he’s been incredibly interested and has all kinds of questions. This morning while visiting his friend Quincy stopped in and he was asking what we were talking about. We shared with him that God sent His Son to die on the cross for our sins so that we may have eternal life. He then shared his beliefs about heaven and hell and that he believed that when you die you go to another planet and just went on and on. We started to get a bit discouraged because conversation was going so well with Kenny but then Quincy said the unthinkable… He said that he wanted to go to hell. It seemed like he was joking possibly but afterward Kenny told me that he was serious.

When we got back to the church it hit me hard. I went behind the church building and started to sob. I realized then that when someone chooses not to believe in Jesus Christ with all (not just some) their heart, mind, and soul that the alternative is Hell. I understand this sounds harsh but it’s truth. We don’t think of that when a friend or family member isn’t (or doesn’t want to be) a Christian because of little minuet details of how Christians act or talk. Rather we things that they just choose not to be Christians… and we forget the alternative.

We have a free gift that we do not deserve; something much greater than we could ever imagine and so many people turn it down so that we can build up life on earth.

One of the boys (named Niko) from children’s ministry found me behind the building of the church and saw that I was crying. He patted me on the back and bent over to look in my face and said probably the only English he knows… “I’m sorry, are you OK?” I could only thank God at that moment and ask for forgiveness for living half heartedly at times. And then I knew the reason why I was here in South Africa.

Thank you to those who are supporting me to be here in South Africa.
You are ministering out here just as I am.